Another one bites the dust…

Treatment 9 and 10 came and went.  Side effects are so much better than before.  I am thankful for this!  Met with my reconstructive surgeon and have set a date.  Sept 27th.   I want my life back.  I want my body back.  I don’t want to be a pin cushion anymore.  Nor do I want to have this operation knowing I will again loose the ability to use my arms for another 6 weeks.     F@€#!!!      I’ll take that Stoli now!

I’m really struggling with this, but I am trying to remember it’s just another temporary setback.  I have finally realized that my sister Sandy is so right.  Cancer has taken this year from me.  The whole year.  I need to let it go.  LET IT GO!  (Wait, Another one bites the dust is a Queen song). Write it off.  📝 Move forward.  I promise myself I will never dwell or look back on this year with anything but gratitude, because it could have been worse.  It could always be worse.

Thankful  🙏 and forever grateful 💙!

How do you think I’m going to get along, Without you, when you’re gone                    You stripped  me of everything that I had,  And kicked me out on my own                       And another survivor, and another survivor…   I won’t miss you at all Cancer!

 

I Will Survive!

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It’s been four days since my last chemo treatment (#7) this would be the first of a series that runs to the end of the year.  Herceptin &  Projeta every 3 weeks.  So far I’m not experiencing the feeling that I started with from my original treatments.    I really hope this is a sign of the way it’s going to be for the remainder of the year.   My hands are peeling I can deal with that I’m sure they’re going to blister, get red  – fine,  stomach cramps coming and I still have a salty taste in my mouth.   Eyes tearing.  But just my overall feeling is 70% better.   I’ll take it with gratitude.
I never was afraid, Never petrified,
kept thinking I could never live
with Cancer in my insides.
But then I spent so many nights,
thinking how to beat this thing,
and I grew strong
and I learned how to move along.

Cancer – go, walk out the door.
Just turn around now
’cause you’re not welcome anymore.
Were you the one who tried
to break me with Chemo?
you think I’d crumble?
you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh no not I.
I will survive.
As long as I have my loved ones,
I know I’ll stay alive.
I got all my life to live
and I got all my love to give.
and I’ll survive. I will survive. hey hey

It took all the strength I had
not to fall apart.
I’ be tired and sick for weeks                                                                                                                    and it hurt in my heart   💔                                                                                                                                            I spent so many nights.                                                                                                                         Feeling sorry for myself,

I used to cry
but now I hold my head up high.
And you see me, somebody new.
A bald headed little person
Trying hard to make it through.
And so you felt like dropping in
and just expect me to be sick
but now I’m saving all my strength’
to say Cancer, I’ve got you licked!

Cancer, go, walk out the door.
Just turn around now
’cause you’re not welcome anymore.
Weren’t you the one who tried
to break me with Chemo?
you think I’d crumble?
you think I’d lay down and die?

Oh no not I.
I will survive.
Oh as long as I have my loved ones
I know I’ll stay alive.
I got all my life to live
and I got all my love to give.
and I’ll survive. I will survive.  Hey, hey

Every night I thank the  Lord for another wonderful day.  🖼 It could be worse!